life is but a joke

my real world blog fell way short of the mark. since then richard dawkins has been discussed extensively in the times. so i read about him on google. usual oxford type... silver spoon.... private education...a second class degree (!!!) but he didn't let that stop him going straight to berkeley and collecting £200....and hanging around oxford waiting for an opportunity....although i have to admit that meme stuff was interesting, important and at first sight quite valid.... but if i was an atheist all those years.. and born rich... i think i'd have done more dope... had more sex.... and walked through orange groves....and thats the point really...i think people should live their beliefs...not sell them..he put himself in the philosophy arena...and philosophy without commitment can only be words.... sure he's famous....but its as much a joke as anything else...if it is all just an accident of particulate collision and alignment....and knowing that.... mr dawkins surely has to justify his efforts...why want more possessions than to peacefully live the life?....why want fame if no individual actually matters?....if all lives do not matter.....the atheist evolutionist conclusion must be that we do just exist and thats the beginning and end of it all....so why do these very clever people carry on seeking...knowing this?...i think it is a highly refined overdeveloped form of instinct...that competitive streak seen in wild animals..intellectualized....purified but no different to the stuff i see down the pub on saturday nights....simply to impress....subconsciously to impress....to get more food or more shags...or better ones....just like the more primitive humans...more primitive than the ones that do not compete....more primitive than the failures...the ones who knew that single minded determination now was wasteful of the life given...the ones that stay married to the one woman...that had little or no ego...the meek.....bob dylan was nearly right...the losers might be the winners...and the winners might be the losers...but none of this is true....because life is but a joke....and then the joke is on us...because we let the sods get away without living the conclusions of their philosophy...and we let them be humanists as well....and that keeps all the rules and walls around their comfortable existances...humanism is simply a middle-class out...an intellectualized way of escaping the truth they know...no rules can be justified simply on the efficiency or survival of the species...when that survival is meaningless in the infinity of time and space (that dawkins tells us of)....its like when christians discovered societies that had lived quite happily without god for tens of thousands of years...suddenly they had to be converted...was it so they didnt make minister-soup out of them...or continue to fight for their lands ...of course it was...a bloody great con over the primitive societies...and dawkins ...by not living his philosophy is doing the same here.....and on that note i must go out and buy his new book...